The Way of Love for the Lord
Chapter 4. Jesus poked me to correct my ways (October 13, 1980)
In 1980, when I had not been baptized yet, the cancer in my colon was spreading widely to other parts of my body. Before my body would stop functioning, I made preparations for my death and, with my husband, visited the Catholic church in Naju to talk to the pastor. Three days after the visit, while I was praying at home, I heard a voice: “Remain close to the Bible. The Bible is My living words.”
So, I promptly and randomly opened the Bible and read Luke 8: 40-56: Jesus said to the woman afflicted with hemorrhages for twelve years, “Daughter, your faith has saved you; go in peace.” Jesus also spoke to Jairus, a synagogue official, who had just been informed of his daughter’s death, “Do not be afraid; just have faith and your daughter will be saved.” When I read these verses, I firmly believed that they were the words that Jesus was giving me and I responded with Amen. At that moment, I began feeling that the lumps of cancer cells, that had been protruding outside my anus, were shrinking and retracting into my rectum.
So, I checked it myself and felt that I was being healed. I rushed to the hospital for an examination, and it was officially confirmed that my cancer and all the complications were completely gone. My blood pressure also became normal from 50/40 to 120/80.
Since then, the Lord has treated me like a precious newborn baby, watching me all the time and holding my hands whenever I was walking lest I fell on the ground.
In addition, another amazing phenomenon occurred. When I tried to do something that did not conform to the Lord’s Will or when I chose a wrong way to my destination, the Lord poked me in a particular part of my body, which caused a pain to me as if I was being pricked with a needle. The poking and pain stopped when I made the correction to conform to the Lord’s Will.
For example, while I was running a beauty salon, one of the employees had a habit of frequently taking money out of the cash box for her personal use. I was about to open my mouth to her to correct her habit, but I was suddenly poked repeatedly in a particular part of my body.
So, I gave up scolding her and, later, spoke to her kindly. I was not poked nor did I feel any pain. Was the Lord testing my obedience to His Will by poking me when I was about to talk to that employee for the first time?
For another example, I was working as a volunteer helper at a charismatic meeting. When it was the time for the prayer meeting to begin, a man approached me and asked for a personal consultation and some advices. As I was in the middle of doing some duties at the prayer meeting, I was going to tell him that I would see him later. Suddenly, I was again poked repeatedly in my body. So, I changed my mind and accepted the man’s request for a consultation, sacrificing my attendance at the prayer meeting.
Whenever what I was doing was not in conformity with the Lord’s Will, he poked me in my body and led me to the correct way. This way, the Lord corrected me and led me to give up what I thought was correct according to my human thoughts. Because of this intimate personal guidance by the Lord, I did not have any conflict or worry in doing anything.
“Oh, my good Lord! My Love! You love this unworthy, lowly and sinful one so much that You lead me on the right way. This sinful and frail sinner can only give You shameful things from me. What else can I wish other than You!
You alone are the Lord of my life, my joy, and my hope. I will continue making efforts to lead a life of resurrection with an unceasing gratitude to You Who are always guiding and leading me with Love. Receive glory, praise, admiration, adoration, and gratitude through this sinner.”
The Lord answered: